always.

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

2 more weeks!

I am currently waiting for a big big big e-mail to be sent out, so I've decided to write something.

Hmm I really don't like this writing platform now, cos I don't have the "blogging feel". ah well, I guess it'll just take me a while to get used to it xD

Anyways, I've been thinking a lot about life's options and opportunities. Now that we're still young, it seems that we haven't been making major decisions in life, so I keep looking back and keep thinking how my life would have turned out otherwise. Hmm. Currently at 2-weeks-to 19 years old, I realised I truly experienced and understood the idiom 塞翁失马，焉知非福. Every bad turn seems to have brought me more opportunities, and every good chance seemed to have led to setbacks as well... But hey, 人生就是要这样活得精彩！:D

Sunday, May 13, 2012

Princess Prosecutor! :D

Hi folks! Haven't been blogging for a while~ cos I kind of forgot, and I was busy watching a new show. haha ((: The show "Princess Prosecutor" is super good! :D Like one of the rare few I'd sacrifice my sleep for ^^

Hmm I haven't been watching my idol dramas or my beloved Running Man for quite some time, but my Kshow-marathon will start soon! (: Life's been good, especially when I complete my Mid-Years' marking in school, and then I have the rest of the time at home for myself :D

Whee~ Post a picture of one of my favourite scenes here:

Monday, April 30, 2012

back and happy! :D

Ok, I'm still trying to get used to this new blogging platform thingy ><

Anyways, I haven't been blogging for long but I should be back more often nowadays cos work's not so tiring anymore ((:

There are so many decisions to make nowadays O: Uni and TXY x) but they're happy dilemmas so it's not so bad a thing (: And at least my wishes are coming true~

Alrightys, dinner time ^.^ yay, I get more time to watch TV with mummy nowadays :D

Friday, March 30, 2012

LIFE IS GOOD

LIFE IS DAMN GOOD NOW. hahaha

long long story. But I had to use my netbook to do work for a few weeks, and I just got my laptop back up and going today. YAYEEE :D :D words can't express how happy I am to have my Microsoft Outlook back and a comp which loads websites faster. xD

anyway, relief teaching has been so much less stressful than internship, and life's been good cos I get to go home early on more days :D

Anyways, I think life's getting better when we're appreciating things like"Mr Bean's" motto: Life's simple pleasures. haha Mr Bean's pearly soya milk is awesommeeeee.

Monday, March 12, 2012

UNEMPLOYED :D

Current status: unemployed (Y)

The teaching internship has been a tiring but fulfilling experience. It's probably the best internship one could ever have. An internship that doesn't require to make coffee but do exactly what your metnors do :D

I guess I've changed quite a bit after becoming a teacher. I'm showing my displeasure in the open more readily now. HAH. How can I not when I have such a naughty class. 8D And my switch between the modes of maturity and childishness can be rather drastic :P But yeah, after pulling a long face or talking to younger people for days, I do need to skip around to remind myself I'm still EIGHTEEN. I'm a JC GRADUATE. I'm a STUDENT.

So today is the first rare Sunday when I can actually wake up, declare a day off and wander around the house. I really treasure my weekends now. (: And I picked up some things that I have left off since 9th Jan, like playing the piano. It feels great to live MY life, fulfil MY interests and not to care about my students for a while!

Maybe I'll have more time to blog and do my own stuff when I'm a relief teacher, not an intern 8D

Wednesday, February 29, 2012

about challenging the Gemini self

I'm so tired ): Not exactly the need-to-sleep kind of tired, but the too-much-inertia and too-many-brain-cells-died kind of tired ):

I realise I have always been pushing myself out of my comfort zone, like for the past few years. Which means, I have always been making my life difficult by challenging myself time and again. I guess that is how I grow quickly? Don't know whether I am stupid or what.

aiya, I think that's just a characteristic of gemini. Even though the lazy self will hate the strict self, the strict one always wins at the very moment when I have to make a decision.

Just like how I woke up last Tuesday morning, told myself I am NEVER EVER going back to teach that class, cos it's wayyyy too taxing. But that very afternoon, I agreed to stay on.

I am not so noble as to aspire to change and groom all those little boys. I just don't want to give up on the 5 or 6 people who actually listen and want to learn. And I will despise myself if I can't take on this challenge of classroom management. Furthermore, I have AWESOME colleagues, AWESOME boss. and I secretly secretly still want to help my lil' sec4s by being around for consultation, even though I won't teach them anymore.

But I'm still getting used to teaching this annoying class. Firstly, I have stopped getting angry with those boys. It spoils my entire day. It's not that I'm soft you know; I do flare up (you just don't see it). But it's mentally and physically very draining to keep getting angry for 1hour 10min. I tried it for 2 days and the feeling sucks because I can't concentrate for the whole day after that. I will die early if I scold those boys everyday.

And so, after a few weeks, I have decided: 如果你们不要听课，就自生自灭吧！你的人生这条路要怎么走，由你自己决定。

And I just have to do my best.

Saturday, February 25, 2012

PENG-ed

Sigh, airshow ah airshow! Because of you, I became joke of the day for the week D:

1. sun-tan
2. drink whisky
3. blush
4. barbequed!

LOL at all the suggestions -.- but ya, my skin still quite red. I think I haven't been sunburnt to this extent before. So scary D:

But I guess the more scary thing is the you-know-what coming next Friday. AHH, I'M DAMN SCARED!

On the other hand, teaching's been good. (though I work for average of 9-10 hours a day...) At least I'm finally helping my students in the ways I had dreamt of (:

JIAYOU MISS LIM!

Monday, February 20, 2012

Dilemma D:

How does it feel like to have a teacher give up on your class?

How does it feel like to be given up upon, because of your annoying classmates?

IT SUCKS RIGHT?

What if you are the one facing the dilemma of giving up on these people? It's the dilemma of "I SUFFER OR YOU SUFFER".

I don't know. I really don't know man. I don't know whether to give up on them or not.

I think scolding people just spoils my entire day. Don't like to scold people. Don't want to go to school to scold people during relief teaching D:

I salute all my teachers, and my colleagues. 你们比参与 CIP 的人还伟大.

Sunday, February 19, 2012

Back to School!

And so I never really left school (:

But there is damn huge price to pay. haha, now I truly understand why passion and not results/ ability should be the main factor in making many life decisions. Because teaching is a job that is TIRING MAX (and apparently I'm only doing around halfload /: ), but what really keeps me going is passion. Seriously. I think I'm like working 24/7, and I have no life D:

I MISS RUNNINGMAN.

So every morning I face a dilemma--
1) SIGH, cannot finish marking D:
2) But it's GREAT to help students understand the concepts
Conclusion: I STILL LIKE TEACHING (:

hmm, I'm trying to convince daddy and mummy to let me continue as a relief teacher after this internship is over! But my argument needs to be like debate style, cos I've been sleeping teeny few hours everyday all these weeks (to prepare for class) and daddy is like 90% disapproving. D:

Sunday, January 08, 2012

holiday

And so I went to Europe for holiday~ :D

There were many ups and downs of travelling on holiday in Europe, but it was generally a good trip! :D The best thing was playing with snow, freezing my entire hand to build snowman and lying on the snow with jiejie, on Mt Titlis ^^

And there were those nights when I could share the same room with jiejie! :D haha, and not forgetting that I don't have to care about my work, and mummy doesn't have to care about her washing machine. xD Finally, jiejie and I sang k in our hotel room while counting down cos we figured the room was soundproof. hehe! :D

First time counting down overseas! I was actually boarding the metro when Singapore was counting down. hurhur. Great experience(:

Won't blog in detail. I have my travel diary to read anyway ((:

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

iCamp

I wanted to blog about this yesterday but I was seriously TOO TIRED.

Yup, I finally managed to convince my parents to let me go for one day of iCamp (though I'd totally wished to stay for the whole camp D: ) And so I set of early early in the morning, being super excited to play~~ haha.

and I joined Ravenclaw! :D JingHua is a really really good zuzhang! Thumbs up! I love my teammates too (((: I think that's how 革命情感 develops. hurhurhur. ^^ I haven't been the one playing all these games for quite a while already! xD

The gross-est thing was stepping on wet mud when we tried to get into the pavilion. everyone was like saying, "we are stepping on shit!". Ok, this goes on the top of the "gross" list cos I didn't get smeared chilli and curry sauce, like some others. Hmm, the next most exciting thing was dipping our faces into the bowl of flour to fish out paper! but argh, I couldn't find any paper ):

And I found my "Watch Runningman" buddies :D *excites* hehehe. Finally can share my excitement for the show with somebody else who understands.

Then wanhui was super exciting! I think wanhui was really well-planned! :D (Y) (Y) and ravenclaw staged a wonderful performance! clap clap! ((: We were so so high all along! :D

But I had to go home after that )): sigh.

I'm listening to CNBLUE now, so I can't concentrate on blogging. haha. Tmr's gonna be an exciting day! :D

PREASE DON'T RAIN. PREASE.

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

HAPPY :D

The last time I was this happy was more than one year ago~ xD

whee~~

Anyway, one of the factors of this happiness is that I finally found my refill papers for my notebook! :D YES, so I can start doodling. haha, searched for so many popular outlets and finally found it! (((:

And I went on a date with jiejie (sort of). YAY :D

BTW, jiejie got me a Doraemon that is the size of the $26.90 one but she got it for $10 cos Kiddy Palace was having sale! She got the last one! :D :D :D I think this is err #17, if we count the huggable ones? ;)

YAYEEEE!

Friday, December 09, 2011

Lessons from a painting session

I went painting today! :D Painted for the first time; though it's other people's house :D haha. It was a really good experience, cos we get to see first-hand what it's like for the elderlies who are not very mobile. Quite a bit of obstacles to overcome, but enjoying every bit of it (:

First there was the house with 3 cats. omg, damn aggressive and god knows how they can fit underneath the cupboard that's against the wall. We didn't even expect a cat and there turned out to be 3 O: But I felt very sad, cos there was definitely a clash of values. Like we youngsters were damn scared of the aggressive cats and kept wanting them out of sight, but the lady loved her pets so much. ): I guess all of us realised the gravity of the issue when the cat tried to jump out of the window when we screamed and the lady cried so hard. )':

and then there was the pair of roommates upstairs who were super possessive of everything they had. Their living conditions are seriously unimaginable. Worse than what you see on TV. And so, I went in with Julian, Kelly and Desmond first. Sprayed DAMN LOTS of pesticides, whacked the roaches damn hard repeatedly before we could clear the place to paint.

[OMG, FAIRPRICE PESTICIDE SUCKS. IT'S JUST BODY PAINT FOR THE ROACHES -.-]

ya, and we painted over cockroach eggs and painted the spiders. heh. Then we moved the stuff on the other side of the unit, and World War III began. What with termites, ants and a COLONY of cockroaches, from fun-size to bigger-than-you-can-ever-imagine ones. Just sprayed and whacked super lots of times!

But all the while the old lady was just annoyed that we moved her stuff. And the old man was scolding her for scolding us.

Can you imagine. 50-60 years down the road, if I can't walk, someone tries to help clean my house and looks disgustingly as my Doraemons and treat them as rubbish? Then secretly throws them away behind my back? D:

I realised it's really important to keep up with the times. At least our mindsets must be "updated" with the society's. If not, it's really hard to receive help and fit into the society Dx The lady with the cats was so thankful for the help. But the pair of roommates didn't appreciate it at all.

I guess it goes back to the scene in "I NOT STUPID", where Selena's mum told her, "I'm doing all these for your own good!" Is it really doing good when we are doing what we think is best for others but they actually don't think so? D:

Tuesday, December 06, 2011

Life's been boring

Eh, I didn't blog after my last paper. Nothing much to say after that anyway. Just that Puss In Boots was really funny. haha, we laughted ttm at the golden goose and humpty dumpty ^^ I've been strongly encouraging jiejie to go watch it but I doubt she'll laugh as hard as I did anyway...

Ya, so life's been boring. Nothing much to do.

And soon work starts pouring in. But it's happy work! :D So happy to do txy stuff without having to think about homework. YES! *\(^.^)/* hmm, as the no. of days from my last 'A's paper increases, the no. of lazy bugs in my body increases too. Hehe, don't really want to tidy the remaining parts of my table now. Maybe my good cleaning cells will start working tonight! :D

And I don't know what shows to start watching. hmm.

Thursday, November 24, 2011

Nightmares

I've been having nightmares! STUPID NIGHTMARES.

I dreamt that I fell asleep while taking a TAXI (?!) to school and the uncle took a big big turn so he could earn extra... And I alighted at some CARPARK OF A NEIGHBOURHOOD ESTATE (?!) and I was ROBBED of my bag and wallet. OMG, ENTRY PROOF.

And uh some other bad dreams that I can't remember. zzZZ

I think it's cos of the pressure that I'm slacking though 'A's aren't over yet. -.- and some article I read in the morning. Interesting how my brain pieces up info and spin new stories...

hello MY BRAIN, please give ME a break.

ugh, that's why I said sometimes I hate the fact that I'm a Gemini D:

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

2 TWO 2

Sometimes I hate the fact that I'm a Gemini. HAHA ^.^

So hard to convince myself to do things. Hoho, especially when I am talking to MYSELF. and 'MYSELF' has 2 sides. ugh, so complicated. Poof.

Hmm, maybe when I grow old I'll have split personality. |:

TEEHEEHEE.

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

So... That's it?

I don't know why, but I felt really sad when I took my revision notes out of my bag and kept them in my boxes after exam each day. Some sense of relief, a bit of sorrow and some tinge of regret. IDK, but it's just so hard to accept that school's over. Like all these 2 years of burning the midnight oil, trying to make my time management work, mugging hard and everything... all my understanding of the subjects are going to be measured by 2/3 papers, a few hours, 1 results slip. (and maybe an RD)

ugh, like WAHT?! It's going to be over in a week. ):

JC has been life-changing for me. I have NEVER expected life to become like that. But I guess, all these choices that we learn to make cause us to become more mature, don't they? Interesting ups and downs these 2 years, a lot of happiness, quite a bit of disappointment; some loss here, some gains there (:

I guess the hardest hit was my results. I think nobody has ever experienced such LARGE fluctuations like me. /: yah, people say, that's the furthest you can go alr, the only way is UP. RIGHT, I never knew I could go down further. hurhur. NOT FUNNY.

Not funny, when you go back to your primary school and your teachers give you a knowing and hopeful look.
Not funny, when your friends tell you "RI one, no problem lah"
Not funny, when you study so so hard and your results don't reflect your hardwork.

You'll never know how long it took me to convince myself that I'm not stupid.

JC taught me the important lesson of Give and Take. I'd never wanted to admit that it was March's Yingxin and June's YES but deep down I knew. I knew how expensive these commitments were. But they were so so important to me. It's not that I don't know how to prioritise like other people; it's just that I have different priorities.

JC taught me that I am not superwoman, much as I hate this conclusion.

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Rainbow :D

是沙泥彩虹！我差点还以为是真的！

O: 是真的~~~

哈哈哈！^.^

Friday, November 11, 2011

MIAN MIAN!

JUST TO SHARE. I did eat my MIAN MIAN in the end ^^ The 3rd bowl of 生鱼幼面 of the week! :D

argh, I want to eat it again.

To quote mummy, "maybe people put opium in the food you keep craving for". xD

Tuesday, November 08, 2011

FOOD cravings (2)

cont'd

NOW I CRAVE FOR THE 面 too. -.-

I should go learn how to cook 生鱼幼面 after 'A's so I won't die of Haw's craving upon leaving the school. xD